Your Lovely Nothing

Je me suis cassé, I am broken.
I'm an emotional slaughterhouse.
Eat me like your forbidden fruit.
Whisper to me like the plague I am.
Dig your nails within my back...je me suis cassé.


...buises painless, succulent divine.
Kiss you once more, my last good bye.
Your heart beats steady for another.... let it thrum pour moi seulment?


I'm the wall flower fed by your confessions.
Lusting you to drown your morals, je suis désolé.
A remnant of my memories,
I thought wrong when you held me close.
You held me like a precious relic, yet I was your lovely nothing.

Poligamy Playground

Satisfying in the sickest way, venture out and play.
The blood on my tongue is from licking my wounds.
Oh the shame,
I savor my scars.
Karmatic consequences fill my days.
Needing him when he's not there.
It's a war just to love you,
yet I'm winning the battle to love myself more.
I'm all the love [we] could need,
but in the effort I can't mold you to the perfection my mind has come to know.
Swinging, climbing, exploring...on the poligamy playground
Down there I'm free to cheat you with myself.

Half Full of Your Memories

Your thoughts coagulated in my mind.
You forced me to a narcissist!
Pedofile your mind, I will.
Your failed achievements, so simple and so sane.
I never knew, I never knew....
...the lover true would use me.
Dreams and tragedies flood my mind with no order.
What am I to do?
Line-less canvas with no room to judge
So dissapointing is your anti-climactic plot.
You're a broken record wretching thoughts into my glass of empathy.
You could never quench my thirst or fulfill my every little desire
...my patience is running dry and my glass has yet to empty.

A Penchant Autopsy

Can you feel my fingers plunged deep inside your eyes?

I knew you'd never make it through the night, you died upon my lap.

I dried your kiss with sin & gasoline.

Flipping coins on your eyes, no souls, here to guide you home.

Lets play doctor, I'll slice you sweetly.

Mauvais, you are my sunshine.

Lest we grind those bones completely.

I'll touch you right and feel you wrong.

6-27-08

With Oblivious My Heart is Locked [He Loves Me Not]

IV tapped spinal chord, synthetic comfort trickles in.
Prick my limbs with your puppet strings.

I [can] stand alone.

Intrauterine I once was

Nervously you filled my pre-climactic void.
I choke myself with " I don't need him"
Once, you needed me.
Swindling my emotions, my existence.
Trembling with anxiety, we know what we want.
<<Love is not the variable.>>
Make me bad beau, everything I morally decline.

My head, a bullet bearing nothing.
Empty and so vain, only to glisten in your eyes.
What beauty was once in my petal lips, drained now by your insecurities.
Let me put myself in your sight, to show everything I never was or hoped to be.
To see what you see in me...

I [want] to stand with you.

6/2/09

Dysfunctional

Days spent alone, company with no one to keep it.

Submissively exhilarated by my subconscious.

[Dysfunctional, paranormal, and emphatically flawed.]

Cannot differ the wraith dreams from my ego.

Pretty little ribcage, you're the front door to my inner workings

...and les doigts prying for enlightenment.

What am I?

Dysfunctional, dared to envisage. 

Hung in Resolute

Tossing & Turning

Broken & Debilitated 

I went and dug a little too deep

Take my gift.

A stab for each tear I wept.

Evolved to devitalize the weak-minded,

but born just like you!

8/20/09

Scarlet Comforts

My lips shining scarlet red, I allured you.

Shame is my name, pain was the game.

No longer blind...and cleansed to be dirty.

A fuck up with no strategy.

Manic persuasion cradling your ego, I can't imagine what I've got left.

Take me away from my world to make me a garden in your own.

This life induced with amphetamines is crumbling far too fast.

Leeching my morality to nourish your stability.

A guilt you can never repair, that day you lost my naivety. 

Fall in love did I, with the simplistics of human-bliss.

No more!

I've remembered how to be strong enough to reject.

I've gotta slit the breast of affection I craved from those around me.

Weened of adoration and greedy for vendetta.

8/11/09